There's a friend, asked me to read the book of ecclesiastes,

''it tells you to not fuse yourself with wine to forget problems, instead take that step, trust the Lord, let Him help you with your problems, that way "through Christ all things shall be possible"

and one of his status-es was

if you "want" something from someone, that includes a simple thing you say "I just want security from him", be prepared to pay for it, and maybe after paying for it, you won't get what you "want", cuz it's just what you "want", you can't make it a "need", you won't die without it

Well, I am super agreed with it. We really need to pay for it, if we want something. and sometimes, what we always want might not be something that we really need.
So now, I don't expect much already ..lets see what is going to happen in the future.